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you can rely on me.
for you,
specially

I promise you,
I'm always there,
when your heart is filled with sorrows and despair.
I'll carry you,
when you need a friend;
You'll find my footprints in the sand.

Wanting to be your favorite hello & your hardest goodbye


dont judge

loves.

To love is to be vulnerable
I choose not to be

i won't hold you back.

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

thank you.

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Thursday, December 16, 2010

things prepared, will be thrown.
its not appreciated.
im not appreciated.
im worthless, in your eyes, in everybody's eye.

sorry that you had to suffer to be with me.
sorry, that im like that and i'll never change.
accept me, and my past.
you wont change for anybody too.
you would want people to accept you and your past too.
am i not right?






唯有愛過才會明白,原來愛不簡單。

女孩以前總是把『愛』掛在嘴邊,她以為即使付諸行動也不足以表達自己那份情意。
而她從來都不知道其實把愛說得太明白會模糊了愛的真正意義。
懵懂無知的初戀,讓她在毛玻璃裡看愛情,受傷之後才明白愛其實不是口頭上說出的這麼容易。

經過了錐心之痛的愛情之後,女孩再也不敢把愛說出口。
她不明白為何愛可以在傷害之中呈現得如此體無完膚,而她始終不解為何自己的愛會被糟蹋得一文不值。
是她的存在價值不夠高嗎?還是因為她付出的不夠多?

誰說愛情裡沒有計較誰付出得多或少,誰又說愛可以偉大得不計較任何東西?
分開以後的情侶最計較的是誰愛誰比較多,誰又傷害對方比較多。

女孩終於明白愛情裡其實存在很多疑團,而愛情的盲點就是把這份情看得比任何東西都重要。
女孩以為說出口的愛是真誠的,她從未想過原來從嘴巴說出的愛可以口是心非。
因為純真的她認為一切的愛都是從『心』出發。

男孩對女孩隱瞞了自己那份感覺,他始終沒有正式告訴女孩他已經不愛了。
當女孩總是問著同一個問題時,男孩就昧著良心說出女孩想聽的答案。

為何男孩要欺騙女孩?
因為習慣了女孩的存在,因為不希望看見女孩那潰堤的眼淚,因為女孩還愛著男孩,所以男孩不忍心傷害女孩那脆弱的心靈。
男孩不曾想過對女孩最大的傷害就是說出假情假意的愛。

這個創傷在女孩的生命裡蒙上了一層陰影,從此對愛敬而遠之。
再多的淚水也無法洗滌傷痕上的血跡,再多的明燈也照耀不了那條被黑暗覆蓋的情路。

女孩把愛揮灑得淋漓盡致,換來的是虛情假意的愛。
女孩悔恨自己當初把愛當成了對男孩的口頭禪,把自己的愛呈現得如此毫無價值。

不管以後再遇見多少個男孩,女孩再也不敢輕易相信從嘴巴上說出的愛。
就算以後自己再次愛上了別個男孩,女孩也不再輕易說出那份愛。
她在男孩身上學會了愛是珍貴無比,即使常常說出『我愛你』這三個字也不足以證明情深意重。

倘若有一天女孩的另一個男孩問起女孩為何總是不說『我愛你』時,女孩一定會回答:
『不是我不想說愛,而是我不敢再說愛』


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