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you can rely on me.
for you,
specially

I promise you,
I'm always there,
when your heart is filled with sorrows and despair.
I'll carry you,
when you need a friend;
You'll find my footprints in the sand.

Wanting to be your favorite hello & your hardest goodbye


dont judge

loves.

To love is to be vulnerable
I choose not to be

i won't hold you back.

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

thank you.

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Sunday, May 2, 2010

WARNING!!! THE MOST NEGATIVE POST EVER HERE!!
so leave if you hate negative thinking.

i guess i am just too silly to believe that there'll be someone there.
someone there to protect me.
someone there to try understand me.
someone there to give me the 安全感 ive needed all these years..

since the day i came singapore, nth good is happening to me.
all my life here,
i've been trying to be part of everybody, be it in sch or anywhere.
i've been trying so hard, too hard or i shd say.
but in the end,
i've always been alone.

who understands?
dont tell me you do.
primary sch, i was alone.
sec sch, i thought i found people who were there.
until now, im glad i have a group of great friends.
thoughticouldshareeverythingwithhim.theressomanythingsiwannatellhim.buthesnotwillingtolistenanymore.

everytime i thought i found someone,
someone who can be there for me, someone who will be there for me,
someone whom i can share everything with,
the person will just *poom*.
disappears.
I AM JUST SUCH A FAILURE.
in every single thing.
im sorry. that i am never good enough for anybody, nt even as a friend.
im sorry. that i am never good enough for anything, even in the things i love most.
i am just a failure.

things that happened, that even my parents dont know
things that have been affecting me all these years..
pure nightmares. and its coming back these days.

i must have been a very bad person last life. =]
im so sorry.
im born negative.
im born to think negatively.
unhappy with whatever im saying,
unhappy with me?
leave then. =]

如果你也听说

i do think of you.
in the morning,
in the afternoon,
at night.
even when we are in the same class.
anytime, anywhere.
whatever i do, whereever i go.
i do think of you.
in my heart, i'll just say 'how good would it be if you're here.'
i do think of you, very often.
not just when im drunk or smth.
it just gave me the 勇气 to tell you whatever i wanna say.
i just feel like im constantly disturbing you.
i've never treated you as someone not impt.
i do miss you,
but i just dont know how to tell you..
still friends i hope. =]=]
and im really sorryy. really..
whosshouldercanileanon?


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