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dunno where to start.
omggg.
momentum is coming..
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
-.-
I AM SO DEAD STRESS. ZZZ
i hate myself for being the way i am now.
i hate my mood like roller coaster.
i hate it when i get so affected by little things about you.
i hate everything of myself.
i hate the way i want to yet i cant.
I HATE MYSELF!!!
RANDOM THOUGHTS:
每段感情裏，每個人都一定會受傷。
他因爲她所做的東西受傷。
她因爲讓他受到傷害而傷了自己。
他覺得他沒做過讓她受傷害的東西。
可他不知道，他的有時無理取鬧的要求,他的不體諒，已經傷害了她。
她知道自己的一舉一動在傷害他，
但因爲面子，她不知如何說對不起。
傻傻得以為就算不說，
行動會讓他知道，
她對他的愛。
他覺得，她從來沒給全部。
但她只是不想讓他知道。
他覺得她想要改變他，
不過她喜歡的，就是那個誰都改變不了的他。
她愛的，是哪個會讓她生氣，為她吃醋，擔心她，一直都守護在她身旁的他。
以爲永遠會在的他，不想再痛下去了，離開了。
她太傻了。當人真的受傷了，跌痛了，就理所當然的走了
沒有人會無論多痛都繼續留在原地。
他會寧願不要再痛。
讓她等，為了看她對你有多認真？
還是有別的原因呢？
別答應任何東西，別給假希望。別讓人飛上天，再掉下地獄。
去了好多地方。
想起好多東西。
好多美好的回憶。
可是都過去了。
如果能再從來，
我會把你放在第一位，做決定前，會想想你。
如果有多一次機會，
我一定會讓你知道，我的感覺，全部全部東西，不會隱瞞，不會騗你。
如果可以的話，
我一定會盡我所能，讓我們開心，讓一切都是值得的。
不過，在這同時，我真的明白了。長大了。
了解事情往往不會如我所願。
就算不能，也一定要做得到。
就算心疼，也得放手。
我不想，我不願，我不要。
但又能如何呢？
發覺了，學會了，懂事了，了解了。但都太遲了。
我喜歡你，我愛你，喜歡到連我都不知爲何會這樣。連我也覺得很莫名其妙。
別人的話，我已經聼不進，也不想再聼了。
該學會聼自己的心了，是時候不再讓人所說的再影響到我了。
等？等多久？爲何等？能告訴我嗎？
[第一次就決定，絕不會錯。]
saw this somewhere on the net:
Guys, you must know that if a girl loved you then, chances are she still loves you heaps now. She's probably crying herself to sleep every night over you while trying her hardest to keep on a happy face during the day. Most likely, she still thinks about you all the time, everyday. She probably still sits there imagining her future with you in it, then thinks back to the past and shatters. Whenever something happens to her, good or bad, she's most likely thinking of you and wishing that she could tell you all about it. Whenever she hears a song on the radio she'll think of you, not only because the song reminds her of you but also how much of her broken life right now can relate to the song. Whenever she watches a romantic movie or sees a cute couple, hand in hand, she starts to die a little more inside knowing that what used to be is now just a memory. Whenever she thinks of you, she smiles, yet at the same time, she is suffering. Although she may not show it, she is suffering a great deal of pain. She's suffering from remembering those happy moments that she'll always remember but it seemed that you've already forgotten. She's afraid that you might forget her along the way as well. On the outside, she may seem like all smiles and laughter, but what is behind the mask is someone who knows really well how to hide themselves. You have no idea just how much pain she is suffering. She still hurts, because the memories of you and her are not only too hard to forget, she also doesn't want to forget, though sometimes she tries to forget, everything just somehow reminds her of you all over again. She re-reads your old texts and convos because she misses you and what used to be. she misses your hugs, she misses your smiles. She misses you entirely. She loves you. She fell for you, and you just watched her fall. Seriously, if you didn't intend to catch her, then don't lead her on, don't get her hopes up, cause the harder harder she falls for you, the more pain she'll end up having to go through afterwards. Don't tell her you love her if you don't mean it, chances are, she might do something crazy like believe it. For the guys reading this, know that no matter how strong a girl may look on the outside, we all go through some sort of pain on the inside when you leave us. And for the girls reading this, there must've been one boy in particular that was on your mind the whole entire time.
